Another Month Later

 Cluelessly back to typing after quite truly a month, that I have spent in all different perspectives of humanity, living, learning, laughing, and crying. Still, I guess that kinda things keep going on so I'll maybe put in a more personal view of what I really did through the course of these days, which was not much other than take leaves, chill out, relax at home then get frustrated about going to school, the next day or soon after actually going to school and then realising all the way again why I really hated school all that much. Now, don't get me wrong, I don't really want to be bratty with this confession right here but the truth sometimes hurts to know or maybe even think about- my school keeps getting worse with every passing day, it is useless and practically skill-less faculty added to the additionally hard levels of papers they make, which added up to the overpriced fees, which doesn't by the way even cover your books or uniforms, just the tuition (with the poor quality that does exist). Now I don't like shit-talking openly out on a blog but my school is an ingenious masterpiece of extreme avarice of money, where the director of the school herself who claims to be a very insightful person with a special love for education, gives her own staff extremely dumb target of selling overprices tickets to their students~ a very well known dialogue amongst my fellows is on the focus on sucking money out of the parent's wallets instead of the actual purpose of the school- teaching. Now, I shouldn't have to sit and explain why that may be quite a logical approach on their end but the part where I apprehend it's illegal is when the marketing and brochures of the school don't say another second word about this whole dumb facade. However, it is a common business practice to not list anything that may be con-worthy when advertising a business, but what this place is meant to be is not a business or capital investment but a school.

I would move on to a much lesser personal topic right about now and I soon will, but here's the part that I feel needs to be highlighted maybe just a little more for it is as important to the development of the country as it is to making the citizens of this country happy -  our practise of making nearly everything that can be, into a game of power and money and then play around- rather toy around with a very crucial bit of somebody's whole life. It isn't much of a wonder that people highlight the focus of this country's education system on simply some grades instead of actual education and maybe somewhere we all are a part of the blame, but can we all really take the blame that easy? Are we interested in making this situation better as a country? I fear not when I see the useless TV debates about two religions or two parties~ Is that really all the media knows or has to portray now? NO. There are many more enlightening concerning, needed debates out there that the media channels need to hold, but then what exactly is causing this loss in interest, before we blame it all on a single cause let's actually sit down and think about the massive viewer retention these topics do give the media- are they really worth it? Not for the cause but definitely for the profit- again a loop of monetisation. But there's a much greater problem involved here that even while you feel this country is democratic- you might not really be able to express very freely. Somewhere amidst this whole chaos, there is an actual authority in power that's making the media force the attention of these masses towards the issues they feel more connected to, so the same masses don't get to see their own country deteriorating. It's a really fun phenomenon to watch the media in your own country change so much after a certain coalition makes government-  suddenly the opposition stops pointing out the cheats and tricks and then slowly disappears until all that's left for a sane citizen to choose is this one option. Somehow, all of the media is unable to praise opposition whatsoever, it was genuinely a fun transition to watch as a kid, noticing what it meant and where my country might be going now as a grown-up though is terrifying. Although I guess what option a person of the country has been left with when it's a choice of bad, worse, better -  there's no good to choose from.

And here is a long thought process I couldn't have hated talking about, because maybe somewhere I type here only what I feel concerns me and not what I feel would sound interesting to a random person on the internet. Now back to me~ I start my final year in school unofficially the day after tomorrow, officially thought it's already been started on the 28th of the last month. But there's this one thing I've heard a lot and keep thinking about- there's a 1% selection rate for med students in my country~ Is it fair? Now here's the funny part- we tried to make it a little fairer by reducing cut-offs and reserving seats for those belonging to comparatively lower "castes" which as a modern person sounds like absolute crap *excuse my words* to me because these so-called lower castes that the seats are being reserved for have all already gotten ahead enough to be able to afford luxuries very easily, the "upper castes" on the other hand struggle sometimes to make ends meet and get grains to the table. And it's fun to see how the criterion for this 1% selection is an exam that tests only one thing- your retaining capacity of the past two years you learned at school- grades 11 and 12. An exam that is already unfair enough to not actually check your capability or skill set but rather your ability to cram up random lessons that may or may not prove helpful to you in the future, has a reservation system that makes your chances of getting in even worse, and once you do somehow get in, doesn't guarantee your getting into a good college- the only guarantee here being it's cheap because it's a government college? So fun.